oh my...it's 2007! crazy how fast 2006 flew by!

life is good...i sometimes feel like i'll struggle with one issue for forever...and maybe i will...but let's hope not...

i love WM...being home is fun...but i miss Baton Rouge...weird, but i do...ready for the new semester to start

i have nothing to say...talking on xanga is foreign to me now...that's so sad!

going to watch some awesome Tiger football in just a bit...so excited! Geaux Tigers!

hope everyone is great...

enjoy your week!

Currently Listening Room for Squares By John Mayer 3 x 5 see related

yep...updating again..

i can't believe Christmas is coming up!  I feel like this semester just started!  One semester almost down...about a million to go...well maybe not a million...seems like it though.

so i have a chance to clep my next english class...if i do well on the semester assessment for 1001, i won't have to take 2000...that would be amazing...i would be so happy...english and i are not good friends at all...

so this is not supposed to be a free night for me..i need to be studying math or biology or doing something productive like that...yeah i'm not...i figure that i'll have enough of that in the next two weeks...why start now? haha tomorrow can be a productive day...i want to read a good book or watch a good movie...just say no to studying!

helping with habitat for humanity on saturday morning...i have to meet people at 6:45...in the AM! i don't know if i'll make it...haha i might collapse! but it's a mission project...we'll see how it goes.

God has been workin on my heart the past few days...i do believe letting go is the right decision...the best decision...plus...i can have something better...it's right there at my fingertips..all i have to do is reach out and grab it...and why shouldn't i? don't i deserve a little good treatment? i believe so.  there's something there...just a matter of not being scared of a relationship...easier said than done.

i just realized how hungry i am...i'm never hungry...this is a weird feeling..

may be doing summer missions...not sure about it yet...still praying about it, but it is a good opportunity...and i really wanted to do it summer before last but couldn't...well God told me to stay in WM...which turned out to be the best decision ever that summer...but now i think he's telling me to go...i just want to be sure..

ok...on to something else non productive...have a good week!

Currently Listening King of Fools By Delirious? History Maker see related

oh my gosh i'm actually going to update xanga. haha. claire's update made me think...so now i shall type it out...on xanga. yes on xanga. ha. feels like high school all over again. wait no...junior year. yes..weird. i digress...on to the update.

wow so life has changed so much.

yet coming home makes it seem like nothing has changed at all.

that is until you come upon construction that has been completed. or you see that new stores have been added. or you ask a friend how they are and how life is and they begin to tell you things that you wish you had been there to experience with them.

it is an odd feeling. to want to be in 2 places at once. and to be honest i'm not quite sure how to handle it.

sometimes i hate the 200 miles that separate me from this place. the way i have to try to tell the people i'm supposed to be closest to everything that has happened in a month. how i wish that my weeks allowed me the time to call every single one of the people i want to call to tell them what is happening and hear their wisdom. the miles force us to move on. not that we can't come back to this place and find each other for a weekend, but our lives are moving on...going down different paths that only cross in this place we call home.

yet sometimes i love the miles that separate me from west monroe. the new life is fun and exciting. and busy. and challenging. and crazy. and i love it. makes me feel independent. like i'm out there accomplishing something. like God has put me there for a specific purpose and reason. God is stretching me and changing me through the new people and experiences in a different place.

but i love the times when i can sit in a room with people i have known practically all my life and just be comfortable. and be completely at home. they are the people who have my trust and my love. who i have experienced both laughter and tears with. who i don't realize i miss until i'm right there with them.

at home in my bedroom, i am reminded of high school. and days that brought so much happiness. and days that brought more tears than i ever wanted to cry. and i am reminded of how much i miss this person. the person that he was. not the person he is today. i'm tired of being reminded of something i'd rather just put behind me. but it's there. in pictures, in notes, in ticket stubs, and in the little things i chose to keep so they'd always remind me. guess they are doing a good job huh?  and  i am stuck. because i think "should i take this down and throw it out?" it will mean taking steps in a direction i've said i want to go in. but a part of me does not want to let go at all. and if i really want to be honest, part of me wishes that life hadn't changed so drastically that day. but then my rational side will show up. and i remember that God knows what is going on. things happen for a reason. seasons change. life happens. and it goes on. sometimes without the people we thought we'd share it with. but God was in control then, and he is still in control today. he will forever be in control. he can see the outcome. he knows why everything happened the way it happened. and he is there. ever faithful. and ever trustworthy. a constant.

alas, it is 2:54 in the AM...and time for katie to turn out the light. tomorrow for me shall come early. 7:45 to be exact. to spend time with 2 of my favorite people in the whole world.

i shall update again. eventually. haha.

Currently Watching While You Were Sleeping By Sandra Bullock, Bill Pullman, Peter Gallagher, Peter Boyle, Jack Warden, Glynis Johns, Micole Mercurio, Jason Bernard, Michael Rispoli, Ally Walker, Monica Keena, Ruth Rudnick, Marcia Wright, Dick Cusack, Thomas Q. Morris, Bernie Landis, James Krag, Rick Worthy, Marc Grapey, Joel Hatch see related

xanga is such a sad place now...no one does it...so sad...

Currently Listening Never Take Friendship Personal By Anberlin see related

so i'm not studying my biology like i should be...for some reason that statement just doesnt effect me much...hmmm not a good sign..

ok so i know about forgiveness...it's been one of my major lessons that i've been learning for like the past 2 years...and i obviously don't have much grasp on it yet because more just continues to happen that calls for my forgiveness...but i mean really...i'm just trying to understand how it's possible to forgive someone over and over and over again when they don't deserve it...Jesus is so perfect...we hurt him everyday yet he continues to love and forgive us...it's incredible...my little hurt heart just can't grasp it...

some people...they call themselves christians who really love God yet their actions say the complete opposite...it's really shocking because i just don't see how they can do the things they do to people(me in particular) and say that they are in tune with God...you'd think that their actions would bother them...shocking...

claire and i are still looking for a church-pray we can find one soon that we will love!

today..i am homesick...

however...i do love baton rouge and LSU...i just miss people..

much love...enjoy your week all xanga world people that are still true to the old-fashioned xanga...